Love you

Today I realised no matter how big a heart you have, love is selfish. & the greatest irony of all, we all say we want the people we love to be happy.
Guess when youre unable to be with someone, it really does not mean you dont love a person enough yes? Even so sometmes you wish that person knew you stil care and there are times you feel selfish.. Like how you cant be with him but you want him by your side all the same. What is this.

Now that I've learnt

I've been better. I've learnt alot about people who has crossed the path in my life. The more significant ones who stayed by me has taught me more. When I look back now I'm just thankful for this fulfiling life. Sure enough you'll know what I've been through, all that love and all that life that I am never contented with.

At some point we get too caught up with one person, one person you thought it will be nice you just revolve around. Thats the one person whom you'll give all your love to and then you'll learn to appreciate it more when others give you love back. I had a funny dream about my ex boyfriend last night. Its been so long since we last met up and if it wasnt for this dream I would have forgotten. I saw myself being so in love, holding on to a guy I'll never be able to get back with. Every night I'll never fail to tell myself how perfect we were together before I sleep and everyone knew I'll travel the mile just to see him smile.

I see people and friends around me going through the exact same situation and sometimes I wish they knew... Because when I was too busy being so captivated in this love story I've failed to realise about the people around. We always say how we all love everyone, how we care how we do not neglect but actually we're all selfish one way or another.

People around will never fail to tell you how much you're worth everyday and I'll still think I'm never good enough for that one person. I'll thought life was cruel because it takes people you love away from you but really... love has always been around. Everyday as I pick myself up I'll see a little more.

Now I've been really been so happy lately. Even my dad sees that glow in me and that made him happier. I've learnt to see that I am still very young and life can only be at its fullest when I give my all out to each and everyone who cares about me. I've finally learnt how to look back and smile at all that has ever happened to me. And to my ex lover, I still thank you everyday. Thankful that I can prove my point that we should always try to be friends with our ex-es. Like I always say, why fall in love with someone knowing that you'll end up being complete strangers at the end of it.

I need to be like this for a long time. For all who has been a part of this story, you really did make me realise I m a better friend and I am happy with the way I am now.

A pocket full of roses

I love you an you'll never know.
Through the days when I was so busy giving so much love to someone else, you stayed.
When I was out with my ex boyf, you still stayed
Through everything, I felt every bit of your love and its getting closer to me everyday.
I dont know how to tell you how much I need you bestfriend.

And again, I'm in love with you too.