You're always outstanding.

I feel proud having her, having her to hold. When im with her i know i wouldnt want to mess up because I need her to be smiling. Little insecurities filled me when people on the streets are looking at her and sometimes i wish i could keep her in my pocket,in a place safe and warm. But then again, I cant blame her because when i look at her..I gradually found all the answers.
Perhaps people out there would very much want to be in my position, having her hands to hold or maybe just be standing beside her.


This was special,a very special love. It isnt the kind you read from books or hear from your friends. It isnt so much about sacrifice or patience, much less giving. Its insanely revolving around happiness that i can never give enough.



Everyone has their way of telling their love stories,so do I. Mine is about being in love with someone who isnt very much in love with you..and yet my love will always remain this unconditional. I dont need her to love me back the same,i just wish she knew how much i could give...and how she should always be happy because someone out there lives on her smiles.
People always say how painful it is to love and not get it back but to me being able to love is great.

There are a million and one reasons why our love is special. But for one,Id tell you we are special because we had goals of equal heights. Heights only so attainable when we work as a team. And now,its goals that we have achieved togeher.

It will always live on as a vivid memory. I'll never forget how love can make people change and how you'd work towards something with support so special like the one I had. I look back feeling only grateful,for everything that she has taught me, for everything that I have become and letting me having a part of her.

There were endless disagreements between us but wrongs became so right when we learn from it. I see the way she would change just to make things better and how she would give in to let me win. For all this, it made me realise how much I would wnat to protect her and cherish her more than anything my life could give.

She'd always come back whenever I reach out for her,she's just never that far away. There were many times I felt her crying thru my darkest nights and even thou she cant be there, she always cared,always.

I gave her 3 reasons why I should go but she could convince me with countless reasons why she would stay. When I see her drift, I knew it was only right to pull every string back..simply because..

Nobody out there would love me the way she does.

A dream about the school boy

Today's my pubic speaking impromptu presentation. Know what I feel like doing, moving here and stop using my lj for good. The 2 pictures are for my own fun and people who found this private space. The new hair treatment cream that I have been using is making my hair look super nice compare to my pubic looking hair before this.

Life's going at a very weird momentum but Im glad I woke up this morning feeling a whole lot better. Thursdays were suppose to be my worst days but well ,yesterday was too hardcore!! Had to deal with the whole lot of drama my family is giving and I had to vent my frustrations to somewhere.

Thank god I met Matthias really. Things has changed a whole lot ever since he came around. Its very nice to have a guy friend who comes helping you with no other intentions,very very nice. I dont tell him about things like that but I do hope he knows how thankful Im to have him in my life now. I have open up once again and confide in somebody. I share my stories and its so much fun when he gets so amused. ^^v

Anyhow, life has been sucking up every bit of me especially when there are people who are awfully self centered...really makes life a lil harder. & of course its always times like this that makes me realise the better people and better things.

Everything's been going great.
I have met a new fallen angel,friends forever now.

When you find you, come back to me

Its been almost 4 months since we met. It got better and I hope it wil always get better. Its like how we see each other grow up and change. To you,Im the immature brat that knows nothing about surreal. To me,you're good and thats why I love you.

& you caught me offguard

Life sux. Seriously Im practically detesting everything. As much as I would really like to convince myself..eh no Im not like that but damn it ,life is so cruel,people're so cruel.

Why do you have to make it sound like its only your solo decision in a friendship? Dude, we may not be as popular but we sure do have a stand of our own. Like we didnt feel weird and unhappy? We had to put up a front so you wouldnt know and there you are...letting out all your emotions like we should just take it.

I dont deserve anything like it from you because firstly..I couldnt find a reason to fault myself. Secondly,I always cared about you like you dont know it. Like how I would come from wherever Im just to make you feel better. You would hurl all your rants at one go..only coming to me when you need so. I didnt even breathe a word of complain..until now when I realise you dont even bother.

I have to believe it??Dude,if everyone just has their make believes,there wouldnt be action in this world. You dont have to do anything to prove love,just make believe?? Ya I know things are different esp cause we are in different environments now but fuck,we made the damn effort.

You will always magnify the little things and make it seem like its a major thing to cover up the rest. When I hear you talk last night,I was just crying. I know it makes me sound like a major loser but how am I suppose to deal with it.