I will always always love you. I dont give a damn of what we are,I always will. Even if i have moved on,you know my heart will always stay.I am finally extremely tired of saying this over and over again but i cant tell when will be the last time. I cried so hard last night because for every decision i make,I will still be at the losing end. It hurt so bad,it fucking hurt so bad. I just need a whole lot of time to think it over,and let whats right be it. Mofomofofmofmofmfomofoo,fuck this shit.

You have a million flaws young lady,but thats why i remembered why I love you. You have so many issues and problems in your life but you can give half of everything to me,I'd be happy to share them with you.I think I am cliche but you know seeing you sad makes me sad,I dont want to see you cry..not for the silliest reasons.You will wake up every morning to find a better reason to live and I'll see you though,I promise.So dry your tears now cause everything's gonna be alright. For you,I will try even harder than before because you are worth everything.If only i could,i would bring the stars and moon closer to you every night,so you know that you are never never alone.


josh; says:
friends to me are damn important
josh; says:
so if my friend are in that kinda state
josh; says:
i feel damn sad too
Caught up in circles confusion is nothing new. says:
ehhhh wl
Caught up in circles confusion is nothing new. says:
now you in this state you think i not emo ah
josh; says:
HAHA
josh; says:
well youre not emo anymore
josh; says:
so when youre happy im happy!
Caught up in circles confusion is nothing new. says:
I am happy when you are!

My awesome friends have been there for me till the end.Esp today

I hope there will be a day,I am entirely exhausted of sparing a thought for you. A day whereby you wont mean a thing and a day when I am genuinely happy even if you are not.It wont happen cause its just not me.
You're the only mofo in my life,you should go screw yourself so bad.
The only bitch that would leave me crying and the only one that would let me walk away time after time. Wtf have i been doing to myself.

Hi dick you are such a dick ok.....dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee soon.Ya hi

This is so fucked!!!!!!!Ok life is truly unfair,why cant people be happy.Yes i really need people to be happy!!Know that theory..you happy i happy. I wanna be happy but not with everyone around me feeling down ya know get ma point. This is soo depressing...........
I should go entertain myself now,have my lil own gay life and not think about a shit!!!Yes just exactly what I will do.

you will never let her walk away from you,right?

I went to the doctor today after four months.
"How are my kidneys"
"They are fine"

Anyway I have this Agnes b condom in my bag. Any takers. I got it free from the boutique itself,i mean its freeee so who wont take it right. Josh has such good deals,we'll go back monthly for the custom designs.
Ok i lost the thing to blog.Bye

I remembered you. You were such a bliss because when everything has fallen out and when the days were dark..you were the thing in my life that brightens me up all the time. As long as I knew that you were there morally,I was happy. Life was really picture perfect.

Maybe its how i actually became stronger,losing the pillar of strength i use to have. At times like this,i have to use other things in life to replace this pillar to hold me on. It worked as long as i could keep myself standing firmly on the ground.

I hope you have found your own replacement too.Sincerely.

I met the best Taxi driver in the whole entire world.
" Hey,i dont have cash can i pay you by nets even if its like 3 bucks?"

Driver:"its ok,its sucha short distance,you dont have to pay me if you dont want to "

Cool siol,plus he's quite young.Wow double plus point,must be my lucky day.
I am so fking frustated with * omg i can seriously just kill him now. I mean hello wtf, fancy acting like you own the bloody world and everything you do is always right.Sometimes its reaching my limits and when it reach the maximum.......you dont like me when i am nasty. Ok fine maybe there's just so much i can do but grrrrrrrrrrrr screw off pls pls pls.

Life is getting a lil back on track i suppose.The week seems so short seriously.I skipped one lecture at least once a day and i can just jolly well expect the warning letters soon. This week has been craapy,i just didnt feel like studying.I just wanted to do things i wanna do for abit. Sounds so brattish but its just how i would get through my days.
On monday,sch ends at 2.
On tuesday we skipped csa and chilled at starbucks.
On wednesday,we had 2 hours of lesson and then...we went to Haji.Chilled @Jco
On thursday,i went off after Csa.Went to town together with Sam and Clarinda.

For a long time today my mind have been taken off many things. I really enjoy bimbos sometimes and all their funny antics.Deep down inside i kinda feel blessed for little things like that.& finally i got my lipbalm..this is satisfying.

I hate my hair so much now,I regret being so implusive seriously .Omg how can i do this to myself!!Ok,gonna just push all my hair back till it grows to the length i desire.Set.

Even when i am turning 17,i have dreams of a kid. How do people even bear to pull themselves back down to earth sometimes.Being away from it is such a heavenly thing. Every moment of reality is so hard,evey thought,every second..gosh i can totally kill myself.I dont have the slightest idea of life suddenly. Im so damn afraid ..

I was pretty movtivated to keep fit,keep happy thoughts,making people happy is my bliss..stuff like that.But now i just need to settle down,figure what i want for abit.I mean running away from my problems is so easy,all i have to do is not thinking about them...but somehow they wil just run back.
Do people really get what they give?

I have the freakiest dreams ever seriously.I think i am a freak.
I dreamt of 2 random people who passed away(IN MY SLEEP) and i had to attend 2 funerals and get freaked out twice. The first person is seriously random,I dont even know why Im at the funeral. The 2nd person means alot to me,yet....i didnt cry at all.I know this sounds bad but I kinda feel pretty much at ease.

I was thinking if my husband were to go earlier than me,then i would be left with all the grief and agony aloneee!!I hate the word alone most of the time. So yes i think if we truly love one another we should keep each other healthy so we'll be able to live for each other and right...die together.
Ok this is a short piece of pris's fantasy.
But of course if the later part of my life worked out this way,i will be eternally thankful for all reasons.

I think there are like dark forces invading my dreams at night seriously.I hate dreaming about life,moreover death!! Seeing people die sucks..even if its someone you hate. You want him/her to be alive for you to torture heh .
On a lighter note,when people go,new lives are born.Dreams are replenished,again.

I have been feeling uptight lately over the slightest things. Its a start of a new month,hope things just get better as the day goes by. Today on things must change,must get high,must get lively cause life is fun!!Hee,K Dian's damn nice really.One in a million people that would actually try to solve your problems for you..i meant literally. Im damn blessed to have such good people around me and i really feel very well taken care of somehow.

I would definitely do the same.