So hi secret space. Everything's like different everyday and things are everchanging. Yj's words held no promises to me at all. Valentine's just a little hope, a little of what I asked but still,it remained almost unrealistic. Im not gonna care really,I still have loving memories to keep and people who wouldnt mind spending that day with me. Im not sad really just... still pondering about the way things change.
Why do people make promises when they dont have commitments to fulfil them? You know how many times have Yj told about doing this and that with me but somehow he'll just come up with this whole..'I dont want to give you false hope thing' .
Its a good thing I have given up a while ago. Expecting too much out of life is insane cause you'll always end up being so disappointed. I adopt this thing about dreaming more than expecting...at least when life chooses to surprise me,I'll feel so blessed and contented.
Anyway I think i have been a bitch to Vivien recenty not that I actually KNOW her but...indirectly i just have this jealousy thing. But I figured jealousy couldnt take me far and I didnt use to be like that. I was a more secured and confident person i suppose. Just couldnt deal with a new girl just yet but its getting good now..
Have to accept the fact that people move on,
people dont live to just love one,
people find replacements eventually,
& I will too right?
Whatever it is,just hope that he's genuinely happy. I'd give anything..
Thought now it would be just good if I have time away on my own.
Love you,baby.Still do.
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